Rough Year Ahead

I’m beginning to understand why, on our first day in a skills lab, a professor told my accelerated nursing group:

“Tell everyone you love that you will see them next year.”

When she said that, I cringed. I don’t want to wait a year to see everyone I love. In a year, Alex will be three. I can’t not be a part of his life throughout this next year. There is no way I can possibly just say, “see you next year, buddy!” I can’t survive a year without enjoying date nights, watching quality television and movies, cooking a meal, with Zach.

How am I going to make it through this year?

I don’t know the answer to that, all I know is this: I will make it through. And while I will certainly be less of a part of my son’s life, have less quality time with Zach and more quality time with my 1000+ dollar books, I will make it. The year will go, and I will come out on the other side with a second Bachelor’s degree. I will make it through.

“I’ll see you next year, buddy, more often. But I’ll do my best to be with you one thousand percent whenever I get to see you this year.”

Family shot!

7 thoughts on “Rough Year Ahead

  1. I’m sorry that it’s going to be so time consuming for you. I can only say it will make you absolutely appreciate the time that you will have. Life is short and time is the most precious commodity. You can and will make it through to the other side. I do empathize with you.

  2. You’ll do it. And if you ever think you can’t, you have many friends just waiting to cheer you on, help you out and just remind you that we’re proud of you. Or at very least, I am. *hugs*

  3. I *HATE* that they said that to you. They said the same thing to my brother-in-law his first year of PA school at Chatham. They don’t have kids yet, but still… so DEPRESSING to hear on Day 1!

    You will get through this. Just take things a day at a time, and enjoy the moments you do get to spend with Alex. It will all be over sooner than you think šŸ™‚ šŸ™‚

  4. you’ll be okay, mama. it’s been very much like that for me over the past 3 years, but the sense of relief and accomplishment that we ALL are experiencing is palpable now that the end of this grueling school/work combo is upon us. my advice is to try not to be too hard on yourself. forgive yourself when feeling guilty. and demand extra hugs and kisses, especially when the stress gets to you.

  5. (((HUGS)))

    I’ve really heard that about the accelerated programs. But, so long as you aren’t working a job I think you’ll be fine. On top of that, you’re a dedicated mom. So you’ll find a way to be the best mom you can on top of all of it.

  6. Well, of course, your little dude will always come first… even before school! Your professor should know that kids are different. You may not be able to spend as MUCH time with him, but you’ll definitely be one of the two most important people in his life, no matter what!

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